Makes you think, doesn't it?

Tuesday, November 18, 2008


It's here, ladies and gentlemen!! Today was the first snowfall here in Pittsburgh that actually layed!! I just took Kacey for a walk, and when i got back, i had that just-been-building-a-snowman feeling, all warm but still chilly around the edges. Ahhh...winter is here!

I'm happy now, but by january, i'll be killing myself for saying that. :)

Thursday, November 13, 2008

Izzie and Denny are back!!!!!

Oh my god i am nearly crapping myself with joy! Denny is back! after all the letters and emails, hating the writers for taking Denny away, they finally caved and they brought him back! Denny is real and alive again! i don't know and don't care how, all that matters is he's real and he and Izzie can be together again, and have the life they wanted! All the hurt she felt can be gone, because Denny is back again! They can be happy together, just like they wanted! Praise the Goddess, Denny is back!!!
My mother tried to crash my party, "But he's still dead!" FUCK THAT SOULLESS BITCH. She doesn't know, she doesn't understand, sometimes love transcends everything. It did with Denny! His love was enough to bring him back! He stayed for her, and now they get to live happily ever after! IZZIE AND DENNY FOREVER!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

Hamster on a piano!

search youtube for "hamster on a piano" and thank me later. XD!!!!!

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

PRESIDENT OBAMA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

i'm drunkety drunk drunk! damn i love it. well true i'm not quite drunk, but i'm certainly on my way WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GO OBAMA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!HALLEFUCKINGLUJAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
whew. now that i have that out of my syestem. now oyu know why i'm drunk. celebratory. my mom's asleep upstairs, but i intend to get drunk off my ass!!!!!! i didn't intend to up til now, but now that i type it, i realize that i do! i want to get drunk tonight. nothing amtters tomorrow, i can sleep in til whenever. esp cuz i dont get hangovers! i love this website, you know that? i really do. this fucking website in the greatest. memmememe! oh that remidns me, did you like my meme? i really ought to shing off and stuff. so, woohoo, go obama, go three olives brand vodka with cranberry juice!! cranberry apple actually. i cant seem to get my head on straight. it keep swanting to tilt to the left. tired. gonna sign off. ciao, lovely Obama citizens! we actualy have a president with an IQ over his age! wahooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i tenf to want ot sear a lot when i'm drunk. fuck yeah. bye.


Meme? (aka lots of I's.)

i saw this online just now. still don't know what a meme is, but it looks interesting.

I am : an animal rights loving vegetarian stuttering shy girl
I think : most people in the world are blissfully ignorant
I know : that the Goddess and the God love me.
I want : everyone on earth to be vegetarian, not to stutter, to be loved, lots of money.
I have : a dog on my chest right now, digging into my ribs.
I wish : every wish i made would come true.
I miss : high school.
I fear : I will never be loved.
I hear : the dog on my lap, Snoopy, breathing.
I smell : nothing.
I crave : chocolate, any form. Not dark.
I seek : the latest dream inside my head. and not to have to do the dishes.
I wonder : How much longer i will be able to stand being me.
I regret : All the things i wanted to say to mean kids who hurt me, but never did.
I love : Kacey, and my family, and several men and women i will always love but never meet again. (or ever)
I ache : For the life i should have had.
I was not : conceived on purpose.
I am not : happy.
I cry : For too many things to write down.
I believe : in magick.
I dance : like a string puppet with epilepsy.
I sing : When i'm truly happy, or scared.
I read : horror, sci-fi, etc. only fiction.
I don't always : treat my loved ones the way i should.
I fight : like a cornered rabid animal- with unbridled passion and little sense.
I write : Meandering, plotless fiction. Always first person, the main charachter always a girl.
I win : at Spider Solitaire every time. also at Mad Gab.
I lose : a lot, especially to my mom.
I never : intend to eat meat again.
I always : pronounce asparagus, "expagarus".
I confuse :
I listen : to all kinds of music, except rap and country.
I can usually be found : in front of the computer. :)
I am scared : about the future. and by slugs.
I need :my mommy!
I am happy: when i look at Kacey.

Saturday, November 1, 2008

Happy Halloween/Samhain!

In case you're one of the millions who haven't heard,
Watch it, and thank me later.

Now, onto other news. Let's see...Still unemployed. still lumping around at home. Halloween was nice. i wore my blue dread falls and fangs and handed out candy. scared the shit out of some little kids. :(
After, my mom went to an all-niter party, and I got blitzed and watched '30 Days of Night". Not a bad little movie, but Mars was in it!!! At least i know him as Mars. imdb and the rest of the world know him as Ben Foster. (Played Mars in Hostage, most misunderstood character in cinematic history, with the possible exception of Gogo in Kill Bill.) I practically screamed when i saw him. Actually, i think i did scream. :) i know i did when the head vampire snapped his neck. Grr...
Anyways. What else? oh, my mom's birthday is in two days! I'm not even really sure how old she'll be, 'cause she stopped telling me a few years ago. ;) i think like 43 or 44. dunno. but as for a social calendar, mine's pretty empty for November.
ooh-i went to Mellon Arena for a rally against the circus, but no one was there! I was so bummed. so instead i went home and carved pumpkins. Rocky Horror was on, so it wasn't a complete loss.
that's about it, though. lemme check my phone calendar. i can't live without that thing.
oh darn. the phone's MIA. well, i guess i'll have to be good with what i got. Happy Halloween and Samhain, everybody!
kisses, me.

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Stephanie Meadows is a bitch; i have a flickr account!

it has been SO LONG since i posted! for a while i forgot about my lovely blog, then i thought i'd lost my password. but yay! i'm back! it's been a while, so i'd better make some quick stats:
I went to Chatham, spent one semester there, during which i felt a recurring need to huddle alone in bed, and/or cut myself. I watched a lot of vintage Sesame Street on YouTube. So that didn't work out much.

Now i'm home again. i got a fantastic job working at a Behavioral Health place, filing medical records. I got to file all day long, and stamp papers, and make file folders, FOR MONEY!!! But then my bitchy boss went crazy on me for saying that "You don't have to kill the spider, it's hiding, it won't come after you." She shoved me, yelled at me, then had me fired. The bitch is crazy. If you see a black woman with a horrible ugly short haircut who's name is Stephanie Meadows, tell her Shay says hi. Then break her nose.

Let's see, what else happened since i left for Chatham...oh! My beloved mouse Dusty passed away this August. He had a lung problem, and he had diahrrea. I made rice water and watched over him, but the strain on his little body was just too much.

I can't think of anything else that happened. I'm still living at home, looking for a job while at the same time not looking, wanting to get out but not doing anything about it. Agh. I'm writing a couple new stories. they're mostly crap, but they're fun to read. My mom's birthday is right around the corner, November 3rd. I'm thinking about catching a bus to the mall one of these days. or i could just cop out and say, hey mom, i'm thinking of spending some money i don't have, will youtake me to the mall? or, hey mom, i'm feeling kinda down. and going to the mall usually helps me feel better. Will you take me? Way to pimp out your depression for a ride to the mall. Well, it's not really for me, it's for her, so i can buy her something. I dunno. I need to get out more.

It's supposed to snow pretty soon. i hope it does. i'm gonna kick myself for it later, i do every year, but i'm kind of impatient for colder weather. This is stupider than usual for me, because i'm cold in the summer sometimes. i'm always bloody cold. But, hell, it's gonna come anyways, bring it on. hoodies and sweatshirts for me! i have so many turtlenecks it makes me gag. :( they're nice and all, but they look so...schoolmarmy. every summer i give a turtleneck to goodwill, and every Christmas my mom buys me a new one. :/

Ooh, ooh, before i forget to plug: i have a flickr account!
Go look at my pictures! leave a comment or ten! i love comments, and i hardly ever get any. :( So tell everyone you know to look at beautiful*loser's photostream on Flickr! Okay? Thanks!

Shameless plug over. Other than the above, things are pretty much normal here: Kacey's the picture of princessy health, mom's working-oh duh! She just got her Series & license- She's a stockbroker! Okay, other than that everything's normal. ;) Same as it ever was, as it were. I miss high school so badly nowadays. I think i'm missing human interaction. Me! Fancy that. Ah, well. I better go do something. I think i'll try and sketch my mother, for her birthday. or maybe i'll clean the kitchen or something. I hear my Fratellis CD calling me. Catch ya later, audience of one!