Family Tree ramble + the bellybutton lint in my brain.

I was supposed to post this about 4 this p.m.. But i forgot. I went donwstairs to start working on my peta stencil-i'm spraying a denim totebag with this really cool stencil that says meat=murder. by the time i finished, my mom had gotten home and we had to go to my grams cuz she had dinner there cuz my Aunt Dorie was there. She's good people. :) she says she's tickled with me. ;) she's my great great aunt. My great gram's sister. i like the girls in my family. at least the seasoned-of-years ones. :) My Aunt Rene, Aunt Dorie, Aunt Evvie, (she was my favorite) and Aunt Phyllis. I might be forgetting one, in which case oops. but there ya go. there's a picture of my great gram, my gram, and all her aunts sitting next to each other at a bar. It's so cute. My mom jokes that the only time my gram gets to hang out and drink is when she's with her aunts! My Aunt Rene loves wine. sh's probably my second favorite. Augh, my aunt (not really, the geneology's just too complicated) Syl just called my gram last week cuz her kidneys are failing. she has to go on weekly dialysis. and my Aunt (also not really) Tally just got diagnosed with breast cancer. she has to go for 33 days of chemo. Scary stuff. my aunt tally used to be one of my faves when i was younger. they're both my Pap Plummer's family. i don't actually know him. i've always wanted to have one of those grandfathers you call pap, so i call him pap. it's not like he can object. Aunt Syl is my Pap's brother's wife. so sort of my aunt. great aunt, i guess. and aunt tally is... lets see...hell, i dunno. our family is too big for my head. Wow, ramble much, Shay? Anyways. Yeah. My gram yeah, yeah, yeah-ed me when i told her about becoming vegan when i get a job. she was all, well you better bring your own food! I was kind of taken aback. i didn't think she'd just not believe me, letalone have that kind of hostile reaction. Well, she didn't think wicca would stick either. sometimes i kind of wonder if the person i'm going to be if i get my druthers is gonna be a dissapointment or the granddaughter she doesnt want. You know? i dont wanna be the weird, tree-hugging hippie chick granddaughter she feels weird around. Ah, dunno. Shamma shamma.
The house is back on the market. Gina's gonna come see it on wednes. we got 5 calls when it came out on the pennysaver last week, but most of them putzed. i worked for 2 solid hours today doing house-ready chores. it was fun, tho, being busy. having to decide what could and could not be done in the time i had rather than wondering what i'll do with the giant chasm of extra time i usually have. Ooh, i discovered a new blog today. the secret city. secretcity.blogspot.com , i believe. the guy writes short stroies and stuff sometimes. i'd like to do that, write some short stories on here, or publish my poems on here. there a little personal (and pissy) for cyberspace. i don't know if i'd feel right. he also just talks, like this. but the man's got a way with words. oh, god. have i even mentioned chatham on here? dream school, heaven on earth. my school. i'm going there in the spring. go Chatham!! um...okay, that's all for now.

I would like to direct your eyes to the time of day this was posted. no, that's not an error. its 7:30 a.m. in the middle of summer. i actually could not get any sleep last night. zero, zip, zilch, nada. My eyes would not stay closed for 60 consecutive seconds. i would love nothing more than to go back to bed, but i am wide caffeine-high awake. minus the messy chemicals. gaah! i toss and turn and move almost every 30 seconds when i'm in bed! i repeat, gaah! so now im faced with the problem of what to do for the next 3 1/2 hours til i can start my day. there just isn't that much to do with my day. i guess watch a movie. ugh. i wanna go to sleep! Maybe i'll youtube for awhile, that usually takes up an hour if i'm careful. and i wanna do some more dorm and insomnia research. well, goodnight. i mean good morning.

Welcome, Ladies and Gentlemen, to the day from hell.

I don't know if i took the wrong bus, or missed my stop or what, but i blinked on the way to town today and i'm at the airport. I had my walkman on (my mp3 is a bitch), so maybe that's the problem. i dunno. then, the hot barista i was telling you about? i made a fool out of myself. when i stood up to leave, he was like, thanks for coming in! and i said, "it's always a joy!" IT'S ALWAYS A JOY??? what the hell is that?? what was i thinking!?! who talks like that? so now Jeremy probably thinks i'm a complete loser. not to mention there was a puddle by one of these lightpoles where the plants were dripping water and i fell on my ass in one, so he probably thinks i peed myself or something horrendous like that. god, i've got to learn to speak! who says that, its always a joy?!? i mean, its always a joy?!? god, i kill myself sometimes. its always a joy. then, i had the worst session with Kathleen. the shrink. it was all about how i need to work on this and that, and how everything is moving so slow, and i'm mired in a marked lack of... anything. change, growth... its all moving right outside my window. and i'm stuck. uck. what a shitbag day. i feel like going to bed and just putting this day behind me. i just want it to be over!!! !!! !!! !!! that's what's going on in my head right now. I cant go to my fratellis concert, i hafta go to social d instead. these mosquito bites kill. jeremy thinks i'm the plague. hell, i think i'm the plague. Kath says i should thikn about what i shoud've done differently, instead of focusing ont he negative. um... i could've said, oh, yeah. i like it here. i could've...paid more attention onthe bus. i couldve asked gram for money so i didn't run out. There. strangely, i feel a little better. i'm still gong to bed. ;)

Peta rules

Damn. Still no love from the workplaces. Damn. I'm not being fazed out by Jesse, tho. her computer broke. Summer, man. you long for it for months, and then once its here it gets so hot and its just like, pick a happy medium why dont you! aagh! it was soo hot today. It would help if maybe my routine varied. but no. Breakfast, Gilmore Girls, chores, tv, walk, internet, dinner, tv, bed. Every. Single.Day. I bot a vegan starter pack and a peta street team starter pack the onther day. sent for actually. i bot 3 vegan buttons. soo excited for them to get here. the street team thing has lots of pamphlets and leaflets and stickers and things. a printed out an assload on my dying printer today. I go downtown for an appt with my shrink, Kathleen, tomorrow, and i will post them up there then. Soo amped! cruelty to animals sucks! fur is evil! meat is murder! go peta!! woohooo! :D.

Greetings and Salutations

Hello! my name's Shay, I'm almost 21 years old. I go to Community College of Allegheny Country, Pittsburgh, PA, USA. I have been a wiccan for 7 years, which still seems weird to write cuz it seems like yesterday. Wiccans, just to clarify, do not worship the devil or any such nonsense. I am slightly of the druidic persusasion, and yes i really talk like that. i have a big vocabulary. :) I want to use this blog to vent about my life, and tell people about wicca and various things i think people should be informed about. Hopefully, i wont lose my password this time, and i'll be able to post more than once. which has happened twice before. Pathetic, i know. i'm going to Chatham College in the spring (yay me!). One more semester of ghetto-tastic community college to go. I dont mean to insult community-college-goers, but i can't stand it. the whole place reeks of declasse. Anyways. I'm blonde, my hair's dyed brownish but the color's kind of faded back to my original color. Which is kind of odd cuz it was permanent color. whatever. I have dark blue eyes, my best feature, and the only good thing besides my skinny-ness that i got from my dad. gr. long, unneccesary story there. I have social anxiety disorder, i stutter like the village idiot, i have all kinds of funky things that make my hormones out of wack, as well as a thyroid disorder where my thyroid isn't attatched to my brain. Unless you've had to take 4 pills a day for the past loooong while, you don't really know what a pain that is. My shoulders are kind of leaning forward cuz i'm missing muscles in my shoulders. Getting the sense that they didn't finish putting me together yet? :) I have a dog, a little brown doxen-mix named Kacey. Damn dog hates me. Gr. Just kidding, i love her. but she can't stand sitting near me. she wont be in the same room with me for more than a minute unless my mom is there. or i have food. I'm trying to train her to stop barking, but i feed her table scraps like she pays me. Or at least likes me. ;) I also have a little black mouse named Stardust, Dusty for short, and he is just the sweetest thing. he climbs up on the roof of his cage and swings around if you come near him or walk by his cage. He's a little acrobat. He once did a somersault from the roof of his cage one time! My mom doesn't like him cause his cage smells. And he, um, made a deposit on her bedroom floor once. Oops! I'm majoring in liberal arts, soon to be english. I want to be an editor, as in books. (Thanks again Jeremy if you're reading this :) ) I watch General Hospital, Grey's, Vegas, and this show on the Food Netword, Good Eats. I'm addicted. What else to i like? reading, im a book whore. I have a serious problem when it comes to skater boys and punks. Another serious addiction. I turn into a puddle when i see a guy carrying a skateboard or with tatoos and a hawk. its pathetic. there was this guy Andrew who was in my English Lit and Mythology class. The first time i saw him, he was sitting in such a way that all his hot arm work showed, and i almost licked him on the spot! Serious problemage. Kay, well, that's all for now. TMI, anyone?